i've read something which goes like this before.

friend wont last forever. know why they leave you?

frens suppose to tell u tings that u did wrongly before and stuff. yupp they did. they leave u cus they are sick of tellin you the same ting so many times all over again when u din open up ur eyes and ears to see wad they hav to sae.

finally, i had a taste of it myself. i reap wad i sow. pple care abt me but i dont appreciate. thats the person i am now but not in the past.

"thats all im goin to sae
im damn disappointed wif u"

"do u noe that we are tired of smsing you.. tellin you.. askin you.. why you never come and wad happened..."

"u noe why they din sms u and call u anymore? cus they are sick and tired of it.. they noe that e end results will be the same.."

"fang wee oso talk to you till she got nth to sae le lor.."

"hwee. im givin up on you soon.. im damn disappointed in you.. u noe shujuan sound sad when she asked mi why? u noe kaiying will ask me the same qns every mornin? even xinyu they all oso asked. "

all these words are revolvin in my head now. i cried after hearin and readin all these. instead of "angry" which they thot i would react. and till now den i noe i look so unapproachable and offendable till pple dun dare to wake me up and gif me a real scolding.

im not angry. i cried. i finally realised that they do care. cus i oweas tink that they dont care abt me anymore cus im jus a nobody inside the group and class. whenever i try, some pple would sae stuffs that bring me down. i dunno why.

im sucha letdown and disappointment to all.

im sucha bitch to break their harts and break my promises.



even "sorry" and "feelin sorry" wont help and mean anything anymore.
cus i really broke their harts till it cant be mend.
they lost their smiles, faith and confidence in me.


wad i wanna do now is to show them that i do treasure and take them as frens. cus i cant return to the past and change everything right from the start.



"sorry from sohhwee might means nth to u anymore. but she cant do anyting else. u're a great fren whom she doesnt knows how to treasure. she will one day. u all did so much tings 4 her yet she duno how to appreciate. shes lousy and uselsee. only know wads tired. thurs nite she slept at 4am. her mum lectured her. next mornin she dun dare to pick up ur calls cus shes timid. shes so damn it useless. how i wish she din exist in tis world. so tt pple dun hav to worry and gave up on her. disappointment is wad her frens label her. she shuld b condemn to hell. u're gr8 and shes not fit to be angry wif u."

i seriously hope she'll reply this.
be it a scoldin or wadeva.
a reponse will do.
cus i still want her as a friend back. . . . .